I have a husband 'bless him' married for 4 years together 6, Grant and I have had our fair share of tough times but we always come through them together.
When we met Grant and I were fit skinny bunnies, flat tummy's, slim legs dimples in the right places ;) Now well I will only speak for my self that is far from the case.
Our wedding Day
Grant and Oakley
Myself and Nixon
So I have decided that it is time for me to take control of my life and really get on top of my weight and body issues, I love food but I also used to love exercising I used to be fitter than a greyhound chasing a fake rabbit and now well all that comes to mind is as fit as an elephant walking to get their next piece of chocolate cake. ( Did someone say cake?).
I am sick of making jokes about my self, I am sick of looking in the mirror and just wanting to cry as I feel so lost in all this extra fat I have found, people say oh but you have had kids and that changes everything well maybe but it is no excuse for the extra 30kgs I am carrying, I want to be a beautiful mum that my kids are proud off and happy to have at their games or prize giving etc, I know that my boys think their mum is beautiful and clever but I do not know if that will be the case as they get older.
I want to be a positive role model for my boys, I want them to see mum running around at the park and swimming with them laughing and just being happy and healthy.
I want to be intimate with my husband and not worry that at any moment I may move causing a Miranda size boobie clap ;) I want to feel attractive and right now I am so far away from feeling that way.
I am the kind of person that if I know someone is keeping an eye on me then I will achieve what I need to that I will try harder that I will succeed.
Today I weigh 99.2 kg and I hope in a week I will weigh less.
I have signed up to do a womans triathlon in November so I am going to train and work hard so that I can truly say I tried my best rather than my usual way of turning up and hoping that someone else is a little slower than me and I don't come last.
so this is my blog where ill be totally honest sharing the highs and lows, the funny stuff and maybe some sad stuff but hopfully there wont be any sad stuff :)))))
So tomorrow I will be starting my training and healthy eating and will be back to fill you in :)
Stay safe and happy :)
